Round Three!! Yes, you heard right, this is the third time I've done the whole query thing. So it should be easy-peasy, right? Then why do I get so anxious and nervous and unsure and worried and just plain jittery this time around?
Not that I didn't the first two times. But I'm actually HESITANT to query! I've researched the agent, formatted the query just for that agent, but when it comes to hitting send I have a hard time clicking! Not that I don't ADORE my story (because I do. It's hilarious, it's fun. I lol every time I read it, and I'm the one who wrote it!). Maybe that's why, though.
The first two times I jumped in and submitted my material when I thought it was ready. I'd had people read it, give good advice. I'd made changes based on that advice. I'd printed out the whole enchilada and read every single word aloud to myself. I'd double and triple checked grammar, sentences, plot structure. You get the picture. I even got requests from agents!
But after all of that I also got rejections.
Then I came to find out it wasn't really ready, and I'd already blown my changes with the agents I wanted!
I think I'm so nervous this time around because I don't want to make the same mistakes thrice. I'm so afraid the same things will happen that I don't want to jump right in and send out queries just to get rejections. So I've sent out a few (one rejection so far), and I'm just waiting to see what happens with these three until I send out any more. I'm leery because I think I want it to happen--to get THAT phone call, you know, the one we all dream of. I want it more this time because I feel like this story is the one. This is it.
There isn't much else that my story needs. It's ready. My query is ready. I know it. But there's that little "What if...?" lingering in the back of my mind. What if I think it is, but it really isn't? I've had more people read this ms than any of the others, and I've had more people love it and give great suggestions and then tell me they have no suggestions. So what's my problem?
Do any of you feel that way when you go to query? Do you get jitters and have a hard time hitting the send button? What do you do about it?
queries Tuesday, October 18, 2011
I'm a mother, a Mormon and a musician, and I squee over all things pink and sparkly. I write books about doors that shouldn't be opened and enchanted tears that shouldn't be shed. I'm the proud wife of a farmer, and we live in a dinky Idaho farm town where the chances of getting stuck in tractor-induced traffic jams are highly likely. I believe anything can be made better with a good attitude and maybe a book packed away for those just-in-case times.